On American Idols and Goodbyes

That dude won American Idol! WTH? Crystal Bowersox can definitely sing FAR FAR BETTER than him. Silly americans only vote based on looks and not talents huh! I'm sure Crystal will fare better than the dude, MUCH BETTER! Just wait till their albums come out...

Seeing this! Makes me realized that sometime...I just gotta move on.
From the things that I cherished,
From the people that I used to loved,
From things that I have lost,
From my friends,
From nostalgias...

I'm not good at doing all that. But I have to move along and not hold on to history.
Cherish today and look forward to tomorrow. And grow up!

So this is goodbye to...

My first ever teddy bear, Mr Bear. He's brown and he has dark eyes and red ribbon on his neck.

The good old days of joining the 37th Kerian Scout Troop. All the campings, and campfires, and awesome training camps. Oh memories!

Some of my bestest friends that I have the honors to make and had a lot of fun hanging out with. Guess chit-chatting at Mamak Stalls is not really our things anymore huh... And hence we drifted further apart due to our other commitments!

The Skinny Jerry. And then the Chubby Jerry. A guy gotta exercise to stay fit and healthy.

Also to the lazy and constantly procastinating part of me. I can do "Better Late Than Never" anymore. I need to evolve and do "Better Now Then Late" starting from NOW. There's never gonna be NEVER in my book. I need to JUST DO IT!

To some of my friends, who showed their true selves and turned out to be very bad for me. I have to be strict and brutal here. Buang Yang Keruh, Ambil Yang Jernih.

Finally, I have to say goodbye to the respects and admirations that I had for some people too. I hope that they will know soon that it's bad and irresponsible to be selfish and lazy, to not keep promises, to be overbearingly dependent, to have selective hearing, to be a marginalist, to reply messages with laconic mono-syllabic terms, to not open up, to not communicate, to judge a book by its cover, and to assume that I'm their charity case.

So long. Goodbye. Breakaway.

Friends 2.0

"You're a brutally cruel person when it comes to deciding who's your friend." I get that a lot from all my friends.

Truth is... I don't like to make new friends. Hate making the effort to look for new friends. Hate trying to get a conversation moving. Hate to make the first move to make friends. Hate to repeat the whole process over again...

Most importantly, i like to keep my friends exclusive. Don't really care about strangers but i will cross the ocean and get dirty to help and support my friends. Seriously! I honestly believe that any friendship made is like a bond between humans. It's a sacred bond, and both sides should never ever even think of ruining it.

I think i make a solid A- as friends. I listen. I care. I help anywhere I can. I share. I gossip. I bitch. And i'm capable of telling my friends that they suck, when they really suck! Sorry, can't ruin the sacred bond with dishonesty, right?

But i personally think that the "brutally cruel" part has to come in somehow... When i'm discontinuing a friendship after some supercillious fools decided to break the sacred bond.

How? Not accepting me as a full package by only liking my good parts. Betraying my trust. Try to prevent me from making new friends. Held me down.

How i deal with these? I cut them out completely. End of the story.

Hey! But i'm not completely heartless! I will consider (don't be too hopeful. i'm just considering..) to rebond for those that have balls to apologize and admit that they screwed up.

Recent events have make me decide to repeat the process of making new friends. I'm OCD, so i believe in keeping the exclusive quota that is my number of friends - Cut the number down when it gets to much, get the number up to replace the fallens.

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

P/S: THIS SONG IS AWESOME!!!!!

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cos
I can't fight it anymore

And i wonder if i ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And i need you now
Said i wouldn't call but
I lost all control
And i need you now

And i don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you come sweeping
Like the way you did before

And i wonder if i ever crossed your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And i need you now
Said i won't call but
I lost all control
And i need you now

And i don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Guess i rather hurt than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And i need you now
And i said i wouldn't call
But i'm a little drunk
And i need you now

And i don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

I just need you now...

Oww baby i need you now...

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