Stopping...Myself

Stop complaining...There are others who are more miserable
Stop procastinating...You gotta do it now and do it good
Stop defining...Living has no definition
Stop pretending...Tell them you don't like their silly annoyances
Stop hiding...Life is much better in the great outdoors
Stop worrying...Just explore and experience
Stop waiting...Tell them you wanna be their friends
Stop pining...You know you should move on
Stop getting influenced...You are who you are
Stop trying to cry...You are a happy person...Don't change that
Stop thinking...Start planning your trips
Stop eating excessively...You eat way too much...Others are jealous with your metabolism
Stop trying to stop yourself...You deserve much better...Go get it!!!

Mes Amis...

I like my friends... They are different... They are not normal people...
I have friends from a diverse cultural mixing pot (Malaysia Negara Berbilang Kaum... Sempoi!)
I have friends from Parit Buntar (Me hometown...Childhood friends)
I have friends who pulled down my pant and exposed my undies in the schoolbus (I pulled them back)
I have friends who don't friend with me now... but friend with me later (Oh the joy of kindergarten)
I have friends who go way back with me (My brothas and sistas back in primary and secondary school)
I have friends who are Scouts (37th Krian Scout Troop - We are the Champions!!!)
I have my best friends (Nien Cze, Kae Ong, Elle, Iejan, and Fea)
I have my KMPh Gang (Jin Ee, Chung Min, Chang Yun, Yong Kang, Qi Wei)
I have bimbo friends (Fea, Kevin, Alia, Myself, etc...)
I have my cool, awesome, clever debater friends (Killing brain cells is so much fun!)
I have my ex-course mates (All are beauties with brains...Chemistry is HArd and Difficult...)
I have my MEP friends (MEP-MAjlis Eksekutif Pelajar Kolej Ibu Zain)
I have technophobe (Ma cherie - Tang Cher Linn)
I have other-phobes (Ma Cherie - Tang Cher Linn)
I have gossip kings and queens (All my friends are...Most just don't realize this fact)
I have problematic suicidal friends (Can't tell you... Won't tell you)
I have gay friends (Don't have to tell you...You will figure them out soon)
I have lesbian friends (You don't know them anyway)
I have friends who smokes (Keat Lim, Reno, Nana...OMG! Only 3 smokers... Sweet!)
I have friends i met online

I love all my friends... Eventhough I don't show it or tell them...
They keep me going...
They are always here with me...
All Hail Friendship!!!

Ciao is...

Ciao is "Hello" in Italian
Ciao is a greeting to a friend
Ciao is a new start after something awful happened
Ciao is a new begining which hopefully is happy
Ciao is the connection between two strangers
Ciao leads to endless posibilities
Ciao is another way of saying "I Love You"
Ciao is the opposite of Leaving
Ciao is wanting you to stay
Ciao is needing you
Ciao is amazing
Ciao is captivating
Ciao is overwhelmingly touching
"Ciao"... Is a Love Story

How to Start...

I have been feeling rather lonely emotionally and mentally lately. I used to have so much confidence in me. I used to not care about what other people said. I used to be so full of myself. But lately, I lost all that. I am constantly trying to keep my emotion afloat and be happy. I feel that my life energy is draining away from me to nowhere. I just feel so sad and miserable.

It would be good to have somebody that I can really connect with, that I want to share the going-ons in my life with, that will make me laugh and keep me warm with his/her presence, that care about me as much as I care about him/her. I would be good...

How to start? Where to start looking? When will I find my somebody?

I am still OK. It's just that I deserve to be HAPPY and to be LOVED...

I will say it... The sentence "I Like You."
I will ask... The question "Would you like to go out with me?"

I WANT to say it... I WANT to ask...

Just waiting for the right person now. Always looking... Constantly pining...

A State of Ignorance Which Leads to Disastrous Suicidality

So i had this friend. Everything is about him. He always rant and rant and rant about him unable to get any girlfriend. The problem is - he just kept on looking and chasing for girls who are seriously and extremely way outta his reach. Of course, he get rejected by the girls, in fact, he got rejected over and over and over again. But unfortunately, he is just too dumb to learn that all those girls are way way outta his league... I feel sad for my friend because now he's getting himself miserable and depressed by listening to suicidal songs and watching depressive movies. I hope that my friend will lower down his expectation because he's seriously seriouly plain looking.
I really hope that my friend will find his happiness and not keep on daydreaming that he actually stand a chance to get all those extremely high maintanance and drop dead gorgeous crushes of his... It ain't gonna happen for you my friend... Wake up from your dream...

Betrayal

I asked for your help
You said 'YES'
I gave you the instructions
You said 'OK'
I reminded you to be cautious
You said 'I'LL BE CAREFUL'
I worried about you
You said 'I WON'T SCREW UP'
I waited for you
You said 'I NEED MORE TIME'
I lost my patience
You said 'I'M ALMOST DONE'
I thanked you
You said 'ANYTIME BRO'

I thought you helped me
You were 'NOT HELPFUL'
I thought you followed my instructions
You 'DIDN'T'
I thought you were cautious
You were 'SO F*#@ING CARELESS'
I thought you were great
You were 'SCREWING AROUND'
I kept on waiting
You kept on 'WASTING MY TIME'
I lost my cool
You said 'YOU WERE SORRY'
I take back my forgiveness, because
You 'BETRAYED MY TRUST'\

P/S: I HOPE YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE...