The Need to Escape

Life has been very busy lately...

Busy waiting for people to give me the green light to finish my assignments;

Busy getting frustrated with myself because I was kept waiting for so long;

Busy finishing my other assignments before their deadlines;

Busy with debate training and selection process;
Busy talking and discussing with walls;

Busy avoiding people i don't want to meet;

Busy avoiding my past who is haunting me now;

Busy taking up responsibilities when i shouldn't have;

Busy tellling everyone it's gonna be OK;

Busy trying to get un-busy... To no avail...

Feels like I can't breathe most of the time...

When I feel like I can, I'm constantly worrying that I will run out of air to breathe...

My favorite song now is Dido's 'Sand in My Shoes'...

At least it gives me a false and temporary sense of freedom when i'm listening to it...

I would be good if I can escape from everything and everybody now...

Wish i can just hit "Pause" right here and right now...

For as long as I desire...

Because I want to be anywhere but here...